The Gift and the promise

I’m sitting here in the dark watching the clock.   Waiting until normal morning so I can make one of the hardest choices anyone who loves their dogs has to make.  To keep my promise and give the gift of goodbye.

My beloved Woo has turned that corner.  Several months ago she was diagnosed with cancer and all that time on meds she has pretty much been her same Diva like self.  Demanding, loving and beautiful.  We had a good holiday season, she enjoyed the left overs.

I spent a long New Years weekend at home.  Windy was feeling fine until Saturday night and she acted a little anxious.  On Sunday morning and afternoon she was a bit wobbly but we had a cold front come thru and I just thought she was feeling the effects but by Sunday evening things had changed.  She doesn’t seem to be in any pain and her mind is active but she has lost control of rear end.  She can stand up but can’t make it go where she wants it too go.  She is like a drunk hugging the walls and falling over and she is scared.  My poor girl is scared  because she doesn’t know what to do with herself and I’m scared that she will hurt herself and cause herself pain.

My heart tells me no but my head tells me that I have to keep the promise I made 12 years ago to take care of her and keep her safe. 

She has been the greatest gift to me and I will be forever in her debt for those that she has brought into my life.

So for now we will sit together in the dark, waiting so that I can keep my promise to her and give her the gift of peace.

Promises kept, Godspeed Dear Woo

Ch.  Keltic’s Winter Solstice, CGC

11-11-1996  01-05-09